I am listening to "I can hear the bells" sung by Nikki Blonsky from the OST of Hairspray. As always, kalo dah stat dengar lagu-lagu jiwang ni.. stat lah berjiwang2. (I don't care, I'm doing my blog in mixture of english and malay this time) Huish.. Seriously in this 2,3 days, I've been following my mood too much. Nak study, bukak buku. Baca sampai tak ingat dunia. Time pemalas and jiwang tuh.. Baring dengar lagu jiwang.. and start la otak tu pk macam macam.. adui.. balik la ke dunia!!!
But I don't care, it's all the unbalanced hormones I have right now, so just cut me some slack aite?? ;p Back then my friends and I said, when we are having a bad day, or having period pain we just absolutely have the right to be mad at whoever regardless --> chance nak jadi bitch for that one day la sebenarnye (and eventually saying sorry to whoever on our outburst after that) :D
Today there is all sorts of drama in the hospital. Firstly there's this one nurse who seriously annoys me. Boleh orang tanye die baik2 die jerit kat kite??? Like hello bitch, what is your freaking problem?? Rasa nak je jerit kat die macam tu, tapi obviously being at the lowest rank of the medical food chain I couldn't do that, so simpan dalam hati jelah. Jadi carik la her "faults" that I can kutuk (duh bitch fit la.. apa lagi).. what I can really notice is, muka die punya la putih, siap ngan eye shadow lagi (ok la eye shadow boleh la puji not bad actually) tapi, seyes kalo suruh die angkat tangan die tutup muka, sebelah tangan je pun, you would realise her hands kan are like ... 5 times darker than her face. That's what I call the case of orang yang terlampau banyak gune krim pemutih muka, ingat cantik ke muka putih macam tu kalo muka tu asyik in a pout je. Ces. Maybe die terpengaruh ngan si Fasha Sanda pakai Garnier tu sampai muka putih gile. Tapi kalo takat muka putih, tapi other parts of your body cam gelap nak mampus what for?? Lagi nampak cam tikus jatuh ke tepung adalah.
Then we were going for ward rounds, suddenly we came across this lady (not really that young.. middle aged around 32 years old), doktor tuh cam baik gile cakap, "Miss (bukan Miss la tapi kena cover nama die yang sebenar), miss, bangun kejap" Boleh die bangun tutup mata tau. Tapi duduk kat katil tu. Firstly, I thought she was blind tau. So I was like "oh, nanti boleh la clerk patient blind for the first time kan". Doktor tu suruh la die bukak mata. Rupanya boleh je bukak mata. --> drama je lebih :P . Die kan, doktor tanye macam tak dengar tau. So the doctor cakap la kuat-kuat sikit, tak sampai ke tahap jerit la, but just sounds like people talking la the sound. Boleh patient tu marah kata "Doktor. Janganlah jerit. Saya ni budak-budak lagi. Saya faham arahan." At that point I was like.. budak-budak? Bukan dah umur 32 tahun ke?? Weird. Then the doktor buat la check for power and tone for the upper and lower limb, then mase nak suruh patient tu angkat kaki die, doktor tu macam pegang la kaki die (at the knee part, bukannye meraba pun, takat just sentuh), tetiba die boleh jerit "Janganlah pegang! Anak dara orang ni! Jagalah tangan tu" Shouting okay. At that point, all my friends, the fellow medical students boleh terkejut, sampai that one dude tu actually jumped back a bit. Okay. Lantak la ko. Probably ngah period pain kot.
Then we went off to the next patient and so on and so forth la. Jumpe la this patient. I clerked her semalam, I wasn't sure of the diagnosis either, tapi to rule out renal colic la because her complaint was of pain at the posterior left flank radiating to the anterior left flank. Thing is, she is staying alone, tak de anak, dah 3 kali kahwin, 3 kali gak divorce. Pretty lonely la pendek kata. Jadi the test results dah keluar la kan daripada the investigations they did the day before, jadi they found out that one of the kidneys cam swelling. Probably a sign of glomerulonephritis or somewhat la. Bile doktor tu bagitau kat makcik tu, muka makcik tu dah berubah dah. And I dah rasa macam smacam dah. Suddenly she took the kain selimut, and covered her face and started to cry. Dengan teruk pulak tu tau!! Sedih tau tengok. The doctor cam dah biasa menghadapi keadaan macam ni, jadi muka die macam tak berubah pun, die terus pujuk la makcik tu. Cakap tak de pa pe sangat, kalo jaga tak lah jadi renal failure and so on and so forth. Pastu die jalan la go to the next patient plak. My colleagues pulak, terus pujuk makcik tu, tepuk2 bahu die, duduk kat sebelah die on the bed, and macam2. 3 of them did that. Me? I was actually stunned. Because I don't really know what to say or do to make her feel better. I just stood there, watching her cry, being consoled by my friends. I'll learn better next time I face a situation like that. I was just afraid I would be the one crying with her instead of trying to make her feel better.
Pastu ada la ikut ward round lagi. Kalo nak terangkan penyakit kat patient, takkanla nak cakap dalam bahasa saintifik kan, jadi as always, doktor tu pun translate la bahasa tu ke bahasa orang biasa or in medical terms we call it "layman's terms". Jadi doktor tu tengah cakap la kat patient tu something that goes like this "Sakit kuning kamu ni disebabkan oleh kuman. Kuman tu ada kat dalam limpa....bla3x"
And me dengan bangganye cakapla kat my friend yang chinese, "oh this dude ada jaundice. And have an infection in his liver."
At that point sorang doktor lain tu pusing and face me and cakap "limpa is spleen la. see how teruk your bm is." terus my friends around me sengih2 cam kambing. malu seh masa tu. dah la aku ni orang melayu. well quarter melayu. (dad = chinese + murut, mom = malay + melanau there fore me one quarter je melayu ;p ) haha. serious la. bm cam fail la plak skrang nih. One day I will try to fully blog in Bahasa Malaysia. by the way liver is hati in melayu.
All sorts of drama in the hospital, and they actually siarkan Cinta Medik kat tv?? Takat hidup pre-clinical je. Langsung tak sama langsung tau!! Mana ada budak medik sebegitu free macam tu. And most importantly, mana ada diorang dok library je lepak. Come on la. Cubela survey betul2 cam ne hidup medical student dulu. One of my coursemate actually said "tak betul la cerita ni. mana ada budak medik lelaki sehensem tu??!!! (tu as in Awal Ashaari)" haha. Terasa dak laki my batch. They're not ugly, but they're no Prince Charming k. You get the picture. Tapi ada la sorang due tu yang kinda cute in my terms. :P haha.
Life is a drama :D
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Monday, September 24, 2007
Bout Ramadhan and Nurin Jazlin
It's the time of year again, Ramadhan. This is the time where all muslims cleanse themselves from sins of the whole year, start fasting and hopefully become a better muslim after that. Some how, every year in the fasting month, the first thing I think about after waking up (I don't usually sahur - as in eat in the morning before the fasting period starts after Subuh prayer calls) is what I should eat for breaking fast. Hahah. I even am too lazy to go out, as I'd be counting the hours to 5pm, where I can go to the Ramadhan bazaar in my area, Taman Melawati which I think is way better than those I've been to, such as Sri Serdang, Putrajaya, one in Kuching, the one in Kuantan (when I was in matrix), the one in Limbang (my dad's hometown), the one in KK (while waiting for connecting flight to Miri). That's why every year, I have the urge to go back home just to go to the bazaar. Don't blame me for being a picky eater, I've read somewhere that "Smart kids are smart eaters (picky eaters)". Haha.
Now the whole of Malaysia is buzzing about what happened to the young 8 year old girl, Nurin Jazlin Jazimin who was brutally murdered, sexually attacked by some psychopath, and her remains dumped in a sports bag somewhere. Now everyone is trying to place the blame on someone, the parents, the "jiran tetangga" who may have seen her alone but didn't do anything about it, the people in the pasar malam and so on and so forth. But I guess most of us are blaming the parents. Because of sheer negligence. But according to the newspapers I read yesterday, that time when Nurin went out to the pasar malam itself was the first time she went out alone. And the parents presumed that she went to the pasar malam with her sister, but her sister stayed at home instead of accompanying her, because Nurin said not to follow. The parents only realized she was not there when she failed to return home an hour later.
You can't blame the parents for what had happened. They may not be the best parents in the world, but they never asked for that psychopath to do all of those to Nurin. Probably when she went missing for almost a month, a part of their hearts already had accepted that she would probably be found dead instead of alive and well. Too bad many are now placing the blame on the parents. In fact, probably they are going to go to court for negligence which may have lead to the death of their daughter (which I think was the most beautiful one among the 3 daughters they have). Come one, Mr Jazimin and his wife are already in a bad state, losing one of their daughters, and now they are to face a court charge?? Let's just give them a bit of time to recover from the shock of losing one of their children.
Seriously, I don't know what is to become of the world today. People are busy trying to get Mr Jazimin and his wife in to court, while the psychopath who did this to Nurin is probably drinking teh tarik somewhere laughing happily while watching the news on them going into court.
Now the whole of Malaysia is buzzing about what happened to the young 8 year old girl, Nurin Jazlin Jazimin who was brutally murdered, sexually attacked by some psychopath, and her remains dumped in a sports bag somewhere. Now everyone is trying to place the blame on someone, the parents, the "jiran tetangga" who may have seen her alone but didn't do anything about it, the people in the pasar malam and so on and so forth. But I guess most of us are blaming the parents. Because of sheer negligence. But according to the newspapers I read yesterday, that time when Nurin went out to the pasar malam itself was the first time she went out alone. And the parents presumed that she went to the pasar malam with her sister, but her sister stayed at home instead of accompanying her, because Nurin said not to follow. The parents only realized she was not there when she failed to return home an hour later.
You can't blame the parents for what had happened. They may not be the best parents in the world, but they never asked for that psychopath to do all of those to Nurin. Probably when she went missing for almost a month, a part of their hearts already had accepted that she would probably be found dead instead of alive and well. Too bad many are now placing the blame on the parents. In fact, probably they are going to go to court for negligence which may have lead to the death of their daughter (which I think was the most beautiful one among the 3 daughters they have). Come one, Mr Jazimin and his wife are already in a bad state, losing one of their daughters, and now they are to face a court charge?? Let's just give them a bit of time to recover from the shock of losing one of their children.
Seriously, I don't know what is to become of the world today. People are busy trying to get Mr Jazimin and his wife in to court, while the psychopath who did this to Nurin is probably drinking teh tarik somewhere laughing happily while watching the news on them going into court.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
just stuff
Okay. there's 3 weeks left till the end of medical posting. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!
Scary!!!! Although I've spent almost 9 weeks doing medicine posting, but sometimes I can be not sure of what I am doing and all. Damn! Like what I said to my friend earlier on today, "The surgery students are counting the days to go to medical posting, while the medical students don't want to leave the medical posting". *sigh*
Just shows that I have to read more, study more, go to the wards more, clerk more cases.. everything in excess!! Who ever wants minute portions of anything right??
A lot of things happened to me for the past few weeks. I've been enlightened. I understand a tad bit more about Islam. Thanks to a fellow friend who brought me to some "ceramah" thingy, it really did open my eyes. Real wide. It made me wonder, how far have our lives rotated away from the true Islam way of life?? Trying so hard to achieve the temporary pleasures in the present world, and forgetting the more important life we will be having after death which is based on our deeds on earth. What has happened to us?? Is it not enough that Malaysia is an Islamic country and we are free to practice our religion albeit some voices who critic our way of life? Is it not enough that every Muslim child in any school in Malaysia is exposed to Islamic studies for almost 11 years of their mandatory schooling life??
Answer is, sadly, no. Although most carry muslim names, but that's about it. They don't practice the 5 pillars of Islam, what more the right pathway of the Islamic life. I'm not a perfect muslim myself, but at least I am seeking knowledge instead of staying put and being ignorant about something I am not sure of.
Besides that, bad things happen too. I was harassed by a patient who asked me for my handphone number on the way back to my college, and I got a fine while driving because I haven't renew my road tax. Heh. (shakes head in disbelief again)
And I don't get some guys who think they are so good looking that they can just pick up and dump any girl at any time, and all they think about is how many relationships they've had in the past. Weird. Seriously.
Scary!!!! Although I've spent almost 9 weeks doing medicine posting, but sometimes I can be not sure of what I am doing and all. Damn! Like what I said to my friend earlier on today, "The surgery students are counting the days to go to medical posting, while the medical students don't want to leave the medical posting". *sigh*
Just shows that I have to read more, study more, go to the wards more, clerk more cases.. everything in excess!! Who ever wants minute portions of anything right??
A lot of things happened to me for the past few weeks. I've been enlightened. I understand a tad bit more about Islam. Thanks to a fellow friend who brought me to some "ceramah" thingy, it really did open my eyes. Real wide. It made me wonder, how far have our lives rotated away from the true Islam way of life?? Trying so hard to achieve the temporary pleasures in the present world, and forgetting the more important life we will be having after death which is based on our deeds on earth. What has happened to us?? Is it not enough that Malaysia is an Islamic country and we are free to practice our religion albeit some voices who critic our way of life? Is it not enough that every Muslim child in any school in Malaysia is exposed to Islamic studies for almost 11 years of their mandatory schooling life??
Answer is, sadly, no. Although most carry muslim names, but that's about it. They don't practice the 5 pillars of Islam, what more the right pathway of the Islamic life. I'm not a perfect muslim myself, but at least I am seeking knowledge instead of staying put and being ignorant about something I am not sure of.
Besides that, bad things happen too. I was harassed by a patient who asked me for my handphone number on the way back to my college, and I got a fine while driving because I haven't renew my road tax. Heh. (shakes head in disbelief again)
And I don't get some guys who think they are so good looking that they can just pick up and dump any girl at any time, and all they think about is how many relationships they've had in the past. Weird. Seriously.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Friends forever??
Since I was young, I've always read in books, or watch in films (especially those meant for teenagers) about once you made a friendship tie with someone, you will stay friends forever. Amazingly as years pass by, I couldn't help but notice how untrue this statement is. We change, and sometimes our friends can't accept the change and they just move on with their lives without us. So do we. As we can't accept changes that our closest peers undergo, (especially if that change involves one of the similarities that causes us to be close to that peer), we start looking for new peers, those who have a tad bit of similarities with us, thus dumping our old friends. So much for best friends forever.
To actually get a long lost acquaintance to actually greet us back and ask how we are doing makes a gloomy day turn into a bright one. There's a Malay proverb saying that goes "Jauh di mata, dekat di hati", but I always thought of it the other way round as "Jauh di mata, lagi jauh la di hati". Isn't that true?? Some of relationships have been broken due to distance.
But what happened to me the other day make me realize how wrong my concept was, and there are people who can stay friends forever with you. Even though you don't meet each other everyday, even though we don't call each other everyday, they still consider you a friend after all those years and all those moments of not being together.
Imagine this.
You are a having a bad day (people are just going ballistic and shouting at you all day long and you heard a bad rumour about yourself spreading around) and your temper's so flared up you want to shout out loud to the world about it.
Suddenly a long-lost-used-to-be-close-friend calls up asking how you are doing.
As you are so pissed off, you ramble about your bad day, shouting, screaming at that close friend, even asking why they haven't been contacting you for so long.
As usual your close friend waits and listens patiently for your ramblings, say some words for the temper to subside, and goes
How great is that?? Tak tahan la wei.
To actually get a long lost acquaintance to actually greet us back and ask how we are doing makes a gloomy day turn into a bright one. There's a Malay proverb saying that goes "Jauh di mata, dekat di hati", but I always thought of it the other way round as "Jauh di mata, lagi jauh la di hati". Isn't that true?? Some of relationships have been broken due to distance.
But what happened to me the other day make me realize how wrong my concept was, and there are people who can stay friends forever with you. Even though you don't meet each other everyday, even though we don't call each other everyday, they still consider you a friend after all those years and all those moments of not being together.
Imagine this.
You are a having a bad day (people are just going ballistic and shouting at you all day long and you heard a bad rumour about yourself spreading around) and your temper's so flared up you want to shout out loud to the world about it.
Suddenly a long-lost-used-to-be-close-friend calls up asking how you are doing.
As you are so pissed off, you ramble about your bad day, shouting, screaming at that close friend, even asking why they haven't been contacting you for so long.
As usual your close friend waits and listens patiently for your ramblings, say some words for the temper to subside, and goes
"I may not be there when you are happy to celebrate your joy,
but rest assured I'd be there when you are having a bad day, and to listen to all your problems, and to keep you cheerful. Even if I don't contact you often, I know all the while you are happy. But today, I have a feeling you're having a bad day, that's why I'm here to call you, to assure you that you have a friend during your bad days too. Because only friends stand by your side when the whole world turns their back against you. Today I am that friend."
How great is that?? Tak tahan la wei.
Monday, September 3, 2007
New Books
I've always LOVED Sidney Sheldon's books. I'm not a hopeless romantic, but I do like a little romance in books that I read. Not until the whole book is about romance, and merely about how the girl is waiting for love and so on and so forth.(Something like Judith McNaught ;p) Boring!!
But too bad Sidney Sheldon passed away early this year, so I can never read anymore new books from him, (his last book was "Are You Afraid Of The Dark?") so I've decided to try reading work from some other authors. I've always been a fan of fiction, but I can read non-fictional stories too (after all blogging is almost always non-fictional, and I always enjoy blog-hopping), so I went around MPH Wangsa Maju that day trying to find a book that I might like (despite feeling guilty because I haven't been reading my medicine books that much, and I have the time to think about reading other books) and I stumbled upon books at the NEW section. The title of that one book really caught my eye, "HONK! If you're Malaysian". I picked up the book, browsed through a few pages, and realized it's not that bad (considering I'm just browsing through it) and because of the spirit of Merdeka and Malaysia Boleh, I decided to buy that book written by Lydia Teh (if I'm not wrong), and give it a try. I haven't started reading it yet by the way.
Then as I was about to proceed to the cashier to pay for this book and also the September issue of CLEO's magazine, a book at the corner of the NEW section caught my eye. The front cover shows a little boy in a white kopiah (and the picture was in black and white by the way) and 2 big circles in red and yellow stating the title of the book and the name of the author. It is the "I AM MUSLIM " by Dina Zaman. I decided to buy that book too, (even though not browsing through it) and then proceeded to the cashier. This is because I've heard some of my friends recommend that book to muslims who are trying to find themselves. After reading about 2/3 the I AM MUSLIM book, I realized they were right. I couldn't help but want to know what is written in that book, (couldn't put it down!!) and I could actually relate to some of the articles in it. It definitely is an eye-opener, and I'd recommend it to everyone who wants to know more about ISLAM, muslim or non-muslim. Currently I'm still trying to finish reading it, and hopefully I can start on Lydia's work soon.
I guess Harry Potter 7 could wait another few months. :D
But too bad Sidney Sheldon passed away early this year, so I can never read anymore new books from him, (his last book was "Are You Afraid Of The Dark?") so I've decided to try reading work from some other authors. I've always been a fan of fiction, but I can read non-fictional stories too (after all blogging is almost always non-fictional, and I always enjoy blog-hopping), so I went around MPH Wangsa Maju that day trying to find a book that I might like (despite feeling guilty because I haven't been reading my medicine books that much, and I have the time to think about reading other books) and I stumbled upon books at the NEW section. The title of that one book really caught my eye, "HONK! If you're Malaysian". I picked up the book, browsed through a few pages, and realized it's not that bad (considering I'm just browsing through it) and because of the spirit of Merdeka and Malaysia Boleh, I decided to buy that book written by Lydia Teh (if I'm not wrong), and give it a try. I haven't started reading it yet by the way.
Then as I was about to proceed to the cashier to pay for this book and also the September issue of CLEO's magazine, a book at the corner of the NEW section caught my eye. The front cover shows a little boy in a white kopiah (and the picture was in black and white by the way) and 2 big circles in red and yellow stating the title of the book and the name of the author. It is the "I AM MUSLIM " by Dina Zaman. I decided to buy that book too, (even though not browsing through it) and then proceeded to the cashier. This is because I've heard some of my friends recommend that book to muslims who are trying to find themselves. After reading about 2/3 the I AM MUSLIM book, I realized they were right. I couldn't help but want to know what is written in that book, (couldn't put it down!!) and I could actually relate to some of the articles in it. It definitely is an eye-opener, and I'd recommend it to everyone who wants to know more about ISLAM, muslim or non-muslim. Currently I'm still trying to finish reading it, and hopefully I can start on Lydia's work soon.
I guess Harry Potter 7 could wait another few months. :D
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