Kelisa syndrome plus other stuff

I have always wanted a Kelisa. (nampak cam a tiny Mini Cooper don't you think?) Eversince I was in Form 5, even before I got my driving license. I wanted a ruby red Kelisa, but since my dad offered me his old Honda, I'm accepting with open hands. I mean, beggars can't choose right? At least I have a ride for me to move anywhere.

Check out the frontview of this Kelisa

A ruby red kelisa on the road

But, today I am so cursing people who have the Kelisa syndrome. I call it the Kelisa syndrome as I realize that people who drive these smaller cars seem to think that their cars can fit anywhere, and not affect any other cars. Seriously, ingat Kelisa tu kecik sangat ke? Parking tah ke mana mana tah.. Nanti kena langgar kelisa tu baru tau.

I went for lunch with my friend today, I picked her up from her office (she's a student but currently doing her industrial training in a company somewhere in Ampang) to go for lunch. As her lunch break is only 1 hour, we ate somewhere near her workplace, but of course, looking for the place to park is a hassle.


So as you can see, the parking space available was between a car and a bike, and since I could get through and there was no other space available, I decided to park there, knowing that I might have problems to drive out later.


But after lunch, this is what happened.

A freaking ruby red kelisa was parking behind my car, with less than half a metre space nak kuar. What the f-? How the heck am I supposed to reverse and drive off to happy ever after land (or wherever I wanted to go?) Typical of those Kelisa drivers. Ingat kereta kecik sikit terus boleh park mana-mana. So I had to go through 10minutes (or more) of hell, trying to get my car out of the minute, tiny space between the Kelisa and me.



Just want other Kelisa drivers to know, or other drivers who have Kelisa syndrome, please park at the appropriate place, and don't block other people's parking or don't double park! Freaks. (p/s : Kelisa drivers out there don't take it personally, not all of you drive/park that way, but most of you do. I know because my brother drives a Kelisa, and a couple of coursemates of mine do too, and all of them are like that ;p)

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On another note, tomorrow will be the finals for Amazing Race Asia Season 2. I can't wait to see which team wins the 1 million dollars. Will it be the hotties Marc and Rovilson from the Phillipines, or Adrian and Collin from Singapore, or will it be our very own Vanessa and Pamela Chong ?

I'm kinda rooting for our Malaysian girls though. Maybe they can pull out something like Zabrina and Joe Jer last year. HUHU..

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I'm also catching up with the latest American Idol 7, seems like there are lots of talents this year, not to mention cute ones too!!! Haha. Eye candy seh :P

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So I'll be flying off to K.K to visit my father's hometown in Lawas, Limbang (which is about 30minutes drive from Brunei, 2 hours drive from Kota Kinabalu, Sabah and maybe about and hour's flight from Miri). Hehe. But we are spending one night in K.K first. Which means lots of seafood to eat!! Huhu. :P

Maybe I can make a stop to Brunei as well. Didn't really remember how Brunei is like. My cousin who married a girl from Brunei once said, Brunei is so freaking small, we can finish touring the whole country in one hour by car. Heh. Enough said.

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My coursemates who didn't make it the other day will be having their exams next week on Wednesday. All the best to them!! Kita naik 4th year same-same k :D

The boyfriend who could have been

This is stale news. But I'm going to blog about it anyway. Heath Ledger died. I first knew about it when I just reached home on the day the results were announced.



My brother asked me casually,"Did you know that Heath Ledger killed himself? Overdose they said"



What the f-? Don't spoil my happy day with this sort of crap news you made up. That's what I told him. Well, he always makes up crappy stuff to see my reaction. Before this, when he saw the third LOTR: The Return Of The King, he told me that Legolas died. I haven't watched it that time. I was pretty sad, I was a major fan of Orlando Bloom, elves and LOTR at that point. Then it turned out to be a joke. He laughed his head of watching my face change to the sound of that news.



Unfortunately this time it turned out to be true. Exactly at the point that my brother finished his question, the television was on, we were tuning to E! Channel, and they were showing Heath Ledger's photos, and I can hear Guliana Rancic actually saying something about "Heath's last words before death.. bla3X"



At that point my heart actually sank. Heath Ledger?? He died?? He was so young! Only 28! He was one of the aspiring actors, the most promising ones! He could have been the next Johnny Depp! But we would never know now would we? He's gone for good. Left behind his only daughter, Matilda (maybe he named her that popular name after the song "Waltzing Matilda" which is popular in Australia -- Heath is an Australian by the way) and his fiancee (or was it ex-fiancee) Michelle Williams. He met Michelle during the filming of 'Brokeback Mountain', famous for the gay scenes between him and Jake Gyllenhaal (did I spell that right?).

Heath and Jake in Brokeback Mountain

Heath and Michelle

Why did I feel so sad? Basicly because I liked Heath. I enjoyed his acting. It touched my heart. He probably touched millions of hearts like mine. I first saw him in "10 things I hate about you" when he was 20 years old, acting along side an already well-known actress Julia Stiles. I remembered the scene where he wanted to court Julia Stiles again, he sang the song "Can't take my eyes off you" at the school field, while Julia Stiles was playing football. (Please see clip below)






At that point, we couldn't really see his skills of acting, just his good-looks, and his hunky bod ;P.
The he went on to star in "The Patriot" with Mel Gibson, "A Knight's Tale" and so on.

Heath with Kate Hudson in The Patriot

Heath in The Patriot

Heath in "A Knight's Tale"

I liked him a lot in Casanova. Who would have forgotten him in that movie? His words flow out of his mouth like water flowing in a stream. I would forever remember the words he told to the soon-to-be Casanova

"If you want to be loved, make yourself worth loving. Be the flame, not the moth"

Heath as Giacomo Casanova in Casanova

Heath in another scene in Casanova

I know these words are written by the scriptwriters of the film Casanova, but never-the-less, it might sound different if a different actor was acting in his place right?



He's like the kind of boyfriend I've always wanted. The bad boy look and all. He's the boyfriend who could have been. :P Haha.

Heath with his daughter, Matilda Rose

I wonder how little Matilda is going to grow up without a father. And to understand later on in life that Heath passed away due to overdose of prescription drugs? But Michelle Williams came out with a statement that Matilda would be brought up with the best thoughts of Heath. I wonder what Matilda would think when she see her father in Brokeback Mountain. The movie is so damn popular that people in America actually says the term "going Brokeback" when mentioning guys who are gay.



Whatever it is, Heath Ledger, you touched my heart with your acting, I hope you are resting in peace right now. Will miss your acting. Always.

Panic attack

I woke up to a call from a lecturer.

"We'll be doing another exam since so many of you didn't get through the last time. The exam would be today."

What the f---? Another exam? I was just starting to enjoy my holidays!!

I rushed to Hospital Kuala Lumpur, arrived around 10.30am, and most of my coursemates were already there. Amazingly, even those who were out of KL arrived there before me.

A namelist was pasted at the door of the quarantine room, stating what time our exams starts. Mine was at 3pm. So I had to wait for almost 4 and a half hours? Insane!!! I'll go crazy by then!

As I waited, they told us what cases we would get, I got exactly the opposite of the cases I got in the previous exams, my long case was to be surgery, while my two short cases from medicine.

I started to get panicky, I wasn't really good in medicine short cases. Then I decided to practice during whatever time I had left on the short cases. As I fumbled around looking for my tools ( pen torch, cotton, orange stick, tongue depressor and so on and so forth) I realized that my stethescope and the rest of my tools were missing. Damn, is this for real??

I got really freaked out, and then I remembered borrowing my tools set to one of my guy coursemates, so I called him up asking for my tools. He told me his turn was before mine, so he would send me my tools before my turn at 3pm. But I didn't lend out my stethescope, therefore it really is missing. I got panicky again, then I asked another one of coursemates in the room to lend me their stethescope for my turn. Amazingly, one of them agreed.

Then the awaited time came. 3pm. I was starting to sweat. I stood up, ready to leave the quarantine room as I saw one of the office staff coming to call my name. I followed her to the doors of the ward, when suddenly she turned and stopped me from entering.

I was like, aren't you going to let me in?

She looked at me and said "Where's your white coat?"

I looked down at my clothes and realized I wasn't wearing my white coat.

Why am I so not prepared for this exam this time? I freaked out and started to scream on top of my lungs.

Suddenly I woke up, and realized that I am on my bed, in my room. I felt palpitations, and a slight chest pain, of pressure in nature. Then I understood how people could have a heart attack in their sleep.

On horoscopes

I got this from an email. Read and tell if it is true about me. *wink wink*

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One (Even the title is like... interesting.. :P)

Spontaneous. (at times i guess :D)

High appeal. (hurm.. doubtful bout this statement)

Rare to find. (I wish to believe so .. hehe..)

Great when found. (of course!! one in a million :D please refer to statement before this)

Loves being in long relationships. (Maybe. I want something stable, and someone I could trust, which could only mean spending more time knowing the significant other)

So much love to give. (Haha!! Really??)

A loner most of the time. (Totally untrue.. I need to have people around me to keep me happy and forget my problems, totally not the loner type)

Loses patience easily and will not take crap. (Trying to not lose my patience easily anymore, but that part of the statement was true before this. And I still will not take crap)

If in a bad mood stay FAR away. (Totally TRUE! My close friends know bout my bitchfit mode ;p)

Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. (True. But I tend to learn to forgive. But still doesn't mean I forget :P)

Loves deeply but at times will not show it feels it is a sign of weakness. (True! But I'm learning to show my true feelings now, because how would others know about how you feel towards them unless you show it? Can't expect people to read your mind all the time right ;p)

Has many fears but will not show it. (Well, I think that I do so show SOME fears)

VERY private person. (Urm.. the very fact I'm pouring my feelings and emotions into this blog totally contradicts this statement... huhu)
Defends loved ones will all their abilities. (I definitely do try, if I believe in them)

Can be childish often. (Totally! I am a drama queen after all. Benda kecik pun leh jadi besar wif me :P)

Not one to mess with. (If I'm in a bad mood that is)

Very pretty. (I hope I do appeal to the other gender.. huhu.. )

Very romantic. (Hurm...... don't really know.. I'm like the most unromantic person on the planet, but I do try to be romantic at times, cuma tak jadik je.. huhu)

Nice to everyone they meet. (First impression is everything honey..)

Their Love is one of a kind. (:D)

Silly, fun and sweet. (At times)

Have own unique appeal. (I think everyone does :D)

Most caring person you will ever meet! (ever meet? most caring maybe not.. but caring to a certain extent I hope :D)

Amazing in bed..!!! (Haha.. :p)

Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. (Half true)

One on the past, and hopefully the future :P

About 2007.

Well firstly, the year started with preparing for the professional exams I in my second year, and preparing for my bestfriend to fly to New Zealand to complete her studies. And I was still in a state of shock on the loss of my beloved handphone and the wreck of my laptop (the infamous incident which I blogged about in my old blog). I never thought I could ever feel better from being that hurt. I felt lost, without my bestfriend for the support, just being left by the ass boyfriend I had at that time and having just moved out of my old room to a new room in college in a desperate attempt to keep myself calm and not hurt other people, I just prayed that I would pass the exam, so I could be left alone to heal.

Amazingly during the tough times I realized there are others who cared about me, who where still there to keep me happy and catch my tears. :D Slowly I began to make friends again, to go out with new people, to explore new interests, and I am glad to say, I have actually forgiven and forgotten whatever mishaps that had happened. Although at times I would remember my misfortune and actually be a bit mad, but the feeling fades away moments later.

Then I went through the whole research project process, which was much more fun than agony actually, and I got to know a tad bit about how different lecturers from pre-clinical and clinical are. Preparing for the worst in 3rd year, I was segregated to be in the medical posting first, which I thoroughly enjoyed, and I made strong bonds with coursemates who I never was close with before, truly showing that we have always been in specific circle of friends before this.

Towards the end of the year, I started to prepare for another Professional Exam in the January of the coming year, which puts me to a conclusion that 2007 was a year of exams, starting with preparing for one and ending with preparing for another. But it truly was a memorable year, with so many new people that I've met, and some I've become close with, where as others that I never kept in contact with, but regardless, I met people from all walks of life. Besides that, I also got a new handphone, and my laptop was fixed, and there are even broken relationships that were mended, so who am I to complain about what I lost when I have gained so much more?? I guess whatever happened was just a way of God to test my faith, to see what I turned out to be in the end (although I hope I still have a long journey to go through in life, and this incident is only one of the numerous tests I am to have). 2007 was great.

My hopes for 2008?

Well, as usual to lose weight. Haha. To grow up. To live life to the fullest. To meet more people from different networks. To be a better Farah than last year, in terms of studying, and to be a better Muslim. Definitely I don't want to take anything or anyone for granted, and I hope no one takes me for granted or treats me badly too.

Basicly, I just hope for the best, while trying to do the best that I can in no matter what. Happy 2008 :D