The four faces of two camwhores

This is what happens when one camwhore meets another. :D



Picture from Anot.

I feel that way too

Sometimes it does get lonely.

Especially when you have thoughts that bother you, and you don't feel like talking to your coursemates because it may be involving them, and you know how good news spread fast, and bad news or bad talk in that sense spread faster.

And you don't want to bother your friends elsewhere who you know have their own lives to think about.

And there are some issues you just don't feel is appropriate to share with your family.

Yes, it does get lonely at times. It gets lonely when the handphone doesn't buzz with messages, when nobody ym's when you're online, when there are no new emails asking how you are doing, or when you see other people walking in pairs of different genders.

And it gets more lonely when you are thinking this way, and a song depicting loneliness is being played, and you wonder when will you not feel like this anymore.

Until then, you just close your eyes and agree with Akon as he sings the song "Lonely". Yes, I am Miss Lonely tonight, at this very moment.

About relationships

I don't get it. I started to think this way the minute I saw Khai and Rosma from AF1 "bersanding" on the stage in Konsert Akademi Fantasia 6. (due to my dad being peminat-kipas-susah-mati AF, forcing the whole family to tune in to Astro Ria every weekend without fail at 9pm) The last time I checked, when Khai went to the academy (or so-called academy), he had a girlfriend (Zarina). By the time he left, he had another soon-to-be girlfriend (Rosma), and dumped the older girlfriend. And now they are married!!!! *gasp*

It's not that I hate people being happy per se, (congratulations to Khai and Rosma if they ever did read this) it's just that I believe in karma. And Khai dumped his old girlfriend for Rosma. Kirenye Rosma is like the third party. And I thought people who became the cause of the break up, or the third party will never get the guy. But apparently it isn't true.

Even my friend who is currently single and searching for a bf said to me once "I know this is really bad of me to think this way. But if someday on, I can't find a single guy that I like, and the guy I like happens to already have a gf, I would still court the guy until he becomes mine. I know this is very selfish of me, but sometimes, we have to think about ourselves first right? I don't mind becoming the third party in the end."

Listening to her say that, I was pretty shocked. I mean, back then in high school tu, lain la kire, flirting around with people like it's nobody's business. But to break up a relationship, especially now when we know better, that is so wrong!!! I mean imagine you are the current girlfriend, and here comes some bitch who flirts with ur bf, and eventually your bf leaves you for her, and in the end they get married. Damn!!!!!

Mana boleh macam ni? I mean, like I said, I believe in karma. If you break up a person's relationship, some day, when you have something you really want, God will take it away from you too. Life is a vicious cycle after all.

That's why I don't really like people who give hope when they isn't any. Because you are going to hurt the person who is hopeful that eventually there will be a relationship. And maybe someday you are going to be in that situation too.

But I guess, maybe if I am in that situation, and the guy I really like happens to be someone else's boyfriend, for now, I would still not try to be the third person. I've experienced karma before. And I was hurt real bad. That's why I'm trying not to treat others the way I don't want to be treated.

But then again, what the future holds for us, we never know right? Maybe I might change my mind about the statement I mentioned in this blog entry. Maybe I'll be the bitch who breaks up a relationship because I want the guy so much. Maybe.

Stress defined

The visit

We had a visit to the old folks home. And had to write a report on it.

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Report on visit to Little Sister of the Poor

We were told by our lecturers that we were going to visit the best home for the old folks in Malaysia. The home goes by the name of Little Sister of the Poor. Not knowing what to expect in a home, my peers and I went on a 30 minute bus ride from our faculty to that particular home on that beautiful Thursday morning.

The home is situated in the midst of the hustle and bustle of the city, in a residential area in Cheras. As we arrived at the gates, I was struck in awe to see the landscape of the home almost alike a resort. There were plenty greeneries surrounding the main building, making the home seem very serene and peaceful. With the background of white whorls of clouds and a light blue sky, the home seems picture perfect, almost like one of the wallpapers Microsoft created for users as their computer’s wallpaper.

As we arrived a tad bit early, and the residents of the home were still having their morning prayers in the chapel, the person in charge, Sister Mary Joan told us to check out the facilities of the home while waiting. There was a rock garden in the home, which was good for the old folks reflexology. In addition to that, they also had a very beautiful garden, and pavements for walking as well.

Finally we were able to meet the old folks. We divided ourselves in smaller groups and talked to the old folks. I had the chance to meet three of the residents Albert, Patrick and Freddie. During the short period of meeting, they told a bit of their life stories and experiences to me, telling me why they decided to stay in the home and what their hopes are for the future. At one point, while talking, one of them even got teary-eyed. I guess even as contented as they were with the situation in the home, not having to worry about when their next meal is going to be or thinking about where to sleep at night, they were not ultimately happy with their life.

We were then brought around to see the other facilities in the home. There were two clinics, medical and dental respectively, a rehabilitation centre fully equipped with machines to help the elderly folks, an arts and craft workshop for the women to practice their sewing and knitting, a kopitiam, a sundry shop, a gift shop and a library. We also had a chance to see one of the rooms of the old folks. It was definitely made in such a way to help the elderly, there were buttons in the toilet and near the bed to call the nurse in case they had a fall, the bed was automatic, and could be bended to further support the spine as they lie down. We were then told that there were plenty of activities held in the home, among them are tai chi classes, karaoke nights, choir practice and so on. We even had the chance to see one of the residents perform two songs on his guitar for us.

There was also a sick wing in the home, where most of the bedridden residents were placed. It was a sad sight to see the residents at this wing, most of them unaware of their surrounding, and not having a glimmer of hope in their eyes anymore. Some of us were reduced to tears watching this, and even I became teary-eyed to see the residents in this condition.

At that point I realized, although there were visitors coming and going to this home, expressing their sympathy, leaving donations, it just ends there. The responsibility to care for the residents still lies on the shoulders of the sisters in the home, because at the end of the day, the one who would be making meals, changing their clothes and going to the hardship with them are not the going to be the visitors after all, but the sisters.

Probably it is good for the old folks who have no family to care for them to stay in the home. At least they would be happier with the other old folks instead of struggling to make ends meet so that they can live, eat, drink or sleep like any other ordinary person. At the end of the day, no
one would want to care for these elderly folks unless they are part of the family, because they consider these old folks not as their problem, but another person’s.

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That was the report. (Because I'm too malas to blog about the visit). But we had some time to camwhore though.

Statues of liberty :P (Ai Y'ng macam power rangers)





Butt-slapping action






Jumping. Tapi macam pic yang tak jadik. Will practice more.





Diorang ni posing.




These are the cutest room-mates ever. :P






Chinese trapped in body with Malay face, trying to dance tarian asli, plus the cute munchkin at the back sticking out her tongue.

Pan-cute. I don't know what face Ai Y'ng (in yellow) is trying to portray.

Favourite picture of the whole bunch. Tranquility.

We are walking on stepping stones.

I am in my lecturer's webpage!

Haha. I am in my lecturer's webpage. *kembang idung* :P

Dr Christopher Lim. He was my supervisor during the medical posting, although being very meticulous about the case writeups I've sent to him (the highest marks he gave me was 7.5 over 10 ok.. @#$#%$^# ), but I'm glad, because he did taught me a lot on case presentations.

Now he is a millionaire. Wow. Maybe if I kiss ass he would give me some of his money? :P Haha.

Please visit his webpage here, talking about his success on raising swiftlets. Or something like that.

My picture is above the statement "Teaching and educating the next generation of young doctors is one of Dr Lim's passions". Passion ke? I think more like forced. HOHOHOHOO. LOL. Kidding :P You're a great lecturer Dr Chris. :D (attempt to kiss ass :P) *wink wink*

This is me.. now

I've been :

• Blaming the college for not being able to go online for the past one week. (Damn you administrators of college **! We pay for the damn fees too you know!)

• Trying to manage the "ample" time in geriatrics posting to read up the ENT, Ophthalmology and Dermatology books - exams are end of May *takoooot*

• Trying to spend less money - instead spending even more *adoi. pengsan*

• Trying to finish up presentations on time. Some of the coursemates have been playing "football", pushing workload from one person to another. In the end, I have to do it. (Damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tension tau!!! @#@#$@$%^^*&*%^%$##@ )

• Pissed off with SonyEricsson. Konon handphone yang dibuat canggih sangat. How come my phone only bought for 6 months have been going auto-off like nobody's business? Dah la tak jatuh or masuk dalam air ok.. Sent it back to the factory, bile dapat balik, the frequency of it going off makin menjadik pulak. And pandai jam pulak time nak antar sms. rasa cam @#$*%$(^%^*#$@# .And bile tanye resale value is now rm300 only.. freakkkkkkk!!!!!!! dulu beli it was rm885 ok!!!!!!! shyttttttttttt gileeeeeee... dah la I lovvvvveeeee this handphone so much, my red w660i. @#$$*@%#^%$^%($@#$@

• Trying to look for an mp3 player (since my handphone cam gile, and I can't listen to music), so now I'm a proud owner of an iPod Nano 3rd generation which I bought at the PC fair (thanks to my mother's generosity).

• Trying to update the blog, but being so pissed off don't know what to write about first.
  

Going green

I really envy my peers who can update their blog daily. Is there so much going on in their lives or thoughts that they can blog about it everyday? And some even have 2 or 3 blog entries in one day! *gasp* Gile weh.

It's the rain

It's been raining a lot these days.

Bringing a cooler environment to study, or relax.

People seem to get carried away with this weather and start talking about love, and relationships non-stop.

The last time I checked, 14th February was long over.