Sunday, November 4, 2007

Why oh why

Man. I'm a wreck. The same feelings flooding again. The increased heart beat, cold at the hands. Am I falling for someone all over again? Haven't feel this way since september last year, when I fell for some scum-bag-loser-player.

Why now of all the time? Why now during surgery posting, when I am trying to concentrate and actually get a great review for my log book, and am actually not looking for someone (after all the months of trying to get to know people)?

And the worse part is I can actually feel myself falling head down, with this one person. Damn!

x x x

I'll be heading to Intan's crib today, who I think will be the last of the open house for raya I would be attending. After going to an fro to serdang, upm, banting, keramat, I think I've tasted almost everything that could be served in an open house.

But all in all, it was a great experience, going in a group driving from one house to another, although I am always the last car in the convoi, due to my slow driving, and my poor sense of directions. Sigh.

Older relationships have been renewed during this time, hopefully everything would be neutral from now on.

x x x x

I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, mine and especially those who are close to me. After all,

We make those who care for us cry.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.


hani said...

misz..think i can help wif d phone u, u gotta work a lil hard la..visit

btw,i know u hv no problem to focus on ur goal..why cant u juz deal wif ya fling after the surgery thingy..?at least, u're givin sumtym for d luv sparks to turn to eternal flame..if they were meant to b la kan..


Farah Waheeda said...

yang, the hp dah dapat dah --> complements of my dad. the fling thingy? still thinking bout it. is it the right time? can i cope? im not sure..

hani said...

ye??..hp ape?

eh, bout ur fling..who is he btw?? hee

Farah Waheeda said...

damn hani. u hav my number right? soalan macam ni tanye la straight .. hehe ;p