My view on things

Sometimes, blog entries seem better when written out of spite or when emotional. Once everything is very lovey dovey, drama ceases to exist on paper, or in the blogging arena.

I'm not supporting break ups, it's just that sometimes, when people are loved enough, even the biggest problem which could turn their world upside down just seems like a storm in a teacup, which can be shaken off easily by turning to their significant partner.

But when they are alone, and they have no one to turn to, the smallest, most trivial of all problems could cause havoc worse than the tsunami to people all around them.

That's when every single word pouring out of their mind, every single story indeed - equates to brilliance. :)

scary-mary

Reading about the experience of being a houseman in blogs written by doctors scare me.

Seriously, scary shit ar.

I can't even make up my mind where to put as the 3 places to work in the form to be sent in this Wednesday.

My answer seemed so clear before I entered 5th year. I wanted to work in Hospital Kuala Lumpur so badly.

Then I went for electives, and I started 5th year. And actually see what these housemen got to do in the ward. The extent of their responsibilities.

Now I'm not sure anymore where exactly I want to apply.

*sigh*

Alice, tell me why a raven is like a writing desk?

My exam tomorrow has been postponed to Thursday.

Like OMG! Lamanya nak tunggu Thursday! I just can't wait for it to be over and done.

I guess I have to endure another 2 days of going to the ward, studying again, while most of my group mates are enjoying themselves already, waiting for the discussion with the lecturers on friday.

:(

Any how, since the exam is on Thursday, went to see "Alice In Wonderland"! Haha. Komplot ngan groupmate.

Bought this "Alice in Wonderland" combo so that I could get the cup. Over sangat. :P

I would say the movie was okay, not great. But because I'm a fan of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton's movies, so I guess I didn't mind paying RM7 for it (student price yo :P).

Oh, btw, the answer of the question as the title? "No idea." -- spoiler alert. :P

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I can't wait for all of this to be over. Everytime I walk back from the hospital, or between reading at my table, I ponder about what I want to do, after all of this is over.

6 weeks, 5 weeks - basically, it's so near!

All that I've worked for in the past 5 years, mind you, 5 X 52 weeks. Add that to a year of matriculation, and 11 years of high school to brain wash you in targetting medicine as your first choice in tertiary education. 11 (primary and high school) + 5(university) + 1(matriculation) = 17 years alone studying!

OMG!

Haha. okay now back to earth, where reality sets in.

Anyway, tomorrow is my O&G end of posting exam, I got the lecturer based in UK for my examiner, God knows what is going to happen. Will he emphasize on my english language, or emphasize on some post graduate topic like management of ovarian cyst in pregnancy? LOL.

Hope for the best la. Dah usaha gak, maybe should usaha more, but dunno how to usaha more already. Did the on calls, clerked as much as possible, maybe should do more short cases? How much more?

But hell, I would rather go all out, than regret later on. So I can say to myself, I did everything.. everything indeed, to survive medical school.

3 years old and counting

ooo.

My blog is 3 years old this month.

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to.. *ok, malas nk smbg dah*
:P






I went to the Satu Suara concert featuring Aizat, Faizal Tahir and Siti Nurhaliza in February this year, and I was stuck in the Aizat-Faizal Tahir phase eversince.






Like what does that mean?

I listen to 'Hanya Kau Yang Mampu' by Aizat like every single morning, repeatedly and before I go to sleep, I listen to 'Selamat Malam' by Faizal Tahir. :P Tu time-time wajib. Tapi sekali pasang, repeat sampai 4-5 kali terus.

Aizat, Faizal Tahir and Siti Nurhaliza

I mean, I did like the songs by Aizat prior to the concert, it's just that I brought my liking to a whole new level as I saw him perform in Istana Budaya that day. Why so? I knew he could play the guitar and all, but I never knew he could play the piano.

For his final song, before the set where he starts joining Faizal Tahir singing, a grand piano was actually wheeled out on to the stage. And I was thinking, "Does this dude actually know how to play the piano?"

And yes, he did. :D

My eyes were set upon him, playing the piano, belting out the "Hanya Kau Yang Mampu" song out loud, and my heart - just started melting. :P LOL.

Men who can play instruments are hot, those who can play the piano on the other hand, are way hotter. :D

And I wasn't really a fan of Faizal Tahir's "Selamat Malam" before this, I thought it was way too slow for my liking, yelah, dah nama Selamat Malam, it's basically a lullaby for someone before they go off to dreamland.

But that night, when I saw Faizal Tahir sing this song, with the wind in his hair, and him looking at the audience *ehem, looking at me :P* and sing out the phrase "Kan ku menjadi arjuna dalam mimpi-mimpimu..."

Wehy.. sapa tak nak Faizal Tahir jadi Arjuna dalam mimpi diorang? Probably those who have partners hotter than him , and can sing better kowt. :P

Muka happy lepas concert weh.


Yang ni nampak happier coz ada lighting lagi kat belakang.

Owh by the way, Aizat is so huggable! Rasa nak hug je tau that day.

Aizat

A close friend of mine said I'm a hypocrite, cause I only start liking Aizat after he is thin. She was a fan of his eversince AF, during his "rounder" days. That's not true. I became a fan after he played the piano live in front of me in Istana Budaya :P Ha..... Lain kan concept?

And I think my roomate will be glad NOT to be hearing Aizat and Faizal Tahir constantly on replay every single day, like for the past 3 weeks. Hohohoho~ She's been complaining already - "Boleh tak pasang lagu lain? Balik-balik lagu Aizat ngan Faizal Tahir. Naik muak tau!" :P


But that doesn't mean I won't be playing their songs on my speaker no longer. Just less frequent. :P


Anyway, now I'm stuck on Coldplay's "The Scientist". I never was a fan of them you see, but I heard the song sang by someone on American Idol (not Katelyn's performance during the Top 10, but during the Hollywood week), then I realized the lyrics were actually quite relatable. *Aren't all lyrics relatable if you think so? That's what makes it so marketable*


When I was in high school, I knew this girl by the name of Azah, who was so in love with Coldplay, and being the narcissistic bitch who couldn't care less about other people's feelings back then, I just laughed her off, because firstly, at that point, hip hop was so the IN thing, and secondly, Coldplay's group members weren't that good looking anyway. LOL.


I guess Azah was more matured than I was back then, and I only achieved the liking of these types of music recently. So, I would like to say to Azah now, Sorry because I said Coldplay suck. They don't. I heart their songs now. :P


Owh, on a different but not unrelated note, I have another friend Aisya from high school who hearts Sidney Sheldon books. And she always reads it, and tells me the summary of the book. Well, back then in high school. In matrix, out of boredom, I read one of the books written by Sidney Sheldon, and fell in love with his writing, and I never looked back since. I remembered when Aisya told me the summary of the book, I actually told her "Aisya, I don't care about that book. Bother some one else about your summary."


Gile cold hearted bitch weh!


So here is another apology to Aisya, I read Sidney Sheldon, and I like the way he writes too. Too bad he's passed away, I couldn't read more of his work (I read most of his books already eversince the first Sidney Sheldon book anyway). I shouldn't have judged the book before I read it, and I'm sorry because I said that to you, I should have dismissed you in better words. Hah. Boleh tak? :P


Anyway, back to the story, my blog is now 3 years old. Hopefully this blogging year would be better than the years before. :D

Gua sudah gemokkkkk

Today, as a start to a better life, I bought myself a weighing scale. Yup, you read it right, I bought myself a weighing scale.

I've been overweight *hurm actually dah nak obese dah pon since these few years* eversince I left high school. (Damn I miss those days where I can eat anything and still fit into clothes!)

I don't know what magic mushroom they put in when cooking in Matrix Pahang cafe, and the weight put on, never went away! Like, holy shit dowh!

And when I bought the new weighing scale, I was like.. double holy shit! Am I that heavy?? *in denial* The old weighing scale used before this showed that I was 12kg less heavy compared to the new weighing scale. huu. T_T Bengong punya old weighing scale.

So this is the start of the journey to lose weight. (Yeah right, start time-time exam dah dekat, makan tak jaga.. wondering if it could actually happen??)

But when watching the biggest loser asia marathon, they didn't wait until tomorrow to lose weight, they just did what they had to do - exercise. Maybe I should try it.

So, we'll see if the mission to lose weight actually works out this time around. :) *keeping my spirit up, but doubtful*

What I heard and liked

Tom Hansen to Summer at Angelo's Plaza (500 Days Of Summer)



Tom : You know what sucks? Realizing that everything that you believe in is a complete and utter bullshit. Sucks!

Summer : What do you mean?

Tom : Aah, you know, destiny and soulmates. True love and all that childhood fairytale. Nonsense. You were right, I should have listened to you.

Summer : *laughs*

Tom : Yeah, what are you smiling at?

Summer : Tom.. *smiles*

Tom : What, why are you looking at me like that for?

Summer : Well, you know, I guess it's 'cause I was sitting in a deli and reading Dorian Gray and a guy comes up to me and asks me about it and... now he's my husband.

Tom : Yeah. And... so?

Summer : So, what if I'd gone to the movies? What if I had gone somewhere else for lunch? What if I'd gotten there 10 minutes later? It was - it was meant to be. And... I just kept thinking... Tom was right.

Tom : No.

Summer : Yeah, I did. *laughs*I did. It just wasn't me that you were right about.




Towards the end of the movie, as Tom Hansen was talking to Autumn, and both of them are interviewing for the same job. He realized that Autumn has seen him before, but he never noticed her.

And the narrator says "If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence. That's all anything ever is. Nothing more than coincidence."




Note : That's the thing. A break up is a break up. You don't have to ask how I'm doing, whether I'm busy or not. It's not part of the deal. You don't have to act as if you care. Because you don't. If you did, it wouldn't be this way.